Was playing a game with andrew and clay from work. Michael Vuong from work was there too.

Andrew was asking something rather mathematical. I gave my answers but clay kept correcting the notation, even if the meaning was pretty understandable. I felt bad and stopped contributing. Mike asked if I was ok. I was unresponsive.

We were making milkshakes later. Lots of blending, weighing, mixing. Mine mustve been a coffee ice cream milkshake. Ended up grinding part of a metal container, poor design.

On a time study. We’re tracking this person. Theyve got a rabbit?

Gathered at work event. Many in attendance. On a big lawn together. Steve and an unknown lady talking about business? Someone says it’s hard to describe to people what we do, in a sort of dismissive way. I look around (suddenly we’re at Ania’s house) and offer that it’s really not, we just maximize what we take from the customer, and minimize accidents (I really meant minimize what we pay for the accidents). Later I also add — to myself — we also maximize customers. I think I saw Nathan Breitch there.

Laert and his girlfriend stayed over at my house with lisa while I was away for some reason. I remarked on how cold it was where I was (it was actually very cold, Louisville without heat). I felt weird that he was at our house.

At a church event, people are talking about abortion. I get up and say they’re saying the same things over and over, making big circles with my hands, since I was a kid in church. Some of the older folks deride me. I talk to one of the older ladies about what the communication barrier was with the younger generation. Idk what she said.

In band again. This time I’m assigned to play a strange bass or tenor guitar I have no idea how to play. It’s electric too. Austin Kim from high school sits next to me, but it’s more likely Dong meen. The conductor begins, and I’m immediately lost. Dong Meen nudges me, whispering my name urgently. I don’t know the notes or the hand positions, much less where we are. A solo is coming up; Dong Meen takes the guitar out of my hands and starts to play the solo. I want to die, I want something to kill me.

In winter. I had my old insight and bad winter tires, sliding around all over the place. Needed to turn around and I just did it by spinning.

Lots of people I don’t know. I’m alone basically except for his friends.

I’m depressed. Not sure why I’m there to begin with. He leaves with his friends, I’m moping around the crowd that remained. A girl orders a peppermint tea. I replace the tea carafe even though this is like a gas station deli, and I find the tea bags were thrown in unopened.

With my family somewhere. I make a racist joke to my father, swapping the e for a Jews to Jaws. He didn’t laugh.

Very suicidal early on. With my family, I break a wine bottle to cut myself with it. Family doesn’t try hard to help.

Practicing defense like a video game. Particular class lets one take down bugs easier.

A giant honey comb breaks a tree limb from limb. Parts land on an AC unit. Bugs start entering the house. Lisa untroubled.

Work event. Henna is trying to flee in a minivan, Jeff Hester and I attempting to stop her. I shatter a window with my knife. Somehow I guess we manage to stop her.

We have a meeting, Zaucha is leading. Henna is babbling, and Steve tells me to shut up. I retort that it was not me talking but the rest of the “class” (felt like high school) started to say how much I talked in the last two meetings.

Got fired from work because of depression, could not maintain the facade.

Laura Naccarato from high school was there, she had done some sort of medical procedure on me as a favor but i couldnt accept it so i paid her $200.

Jason Mendoza from the good place was my brother and had some legal documents saying he was entitled to all the money i made at progressive. I signed it over.